**That Frozen Feeling: Why Faith Isn't the Absence of Fear (And What It Actually Is)**

It’s 3:00 AM. The house is dark, everyone is asleep, and your heart is pounding.

You know the feeling. The "what if" scenarios are playing on a non-stop loop in your head. What if I lose my job? What if that test result comes back positive? What if I fail? What if...

You’re frozen.

You’re also a person of faith. So on top of the fear, a nice, thick layer of guilt settles in. "I shouldn't be this afraid," you tell yourself. "If I really trusted God, I’d be at peace. My faith must be weak."

Can I just say, as a fellow human being trying to walk this messy, beautiful Catholic life: That is a lie.

For years, I believed that lie. I thought faith was a magic, anti-fear vaccine. I’d pray for the fear to go away, and when it didn't, I assumed I was doing something wrong.

But I’ve come to learn (the hard way) that faith isn't about being fearless. Look at the scriptures. The command "Be not afraid" is in the Bible hundreds of times. Why? Because we are afraid. It's a fundamental human response. Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane was in "anguish," sweating blood. He wasn't skipping toward the cross.

Here’s the truth I wish I’d learned sooner:

Faith is not the absence of fear. Faith is the decision to trust God's presence and power more than the perceived threat.

Faith isn't a feeling; it's an action. It's a choice. It's a pivot.

And this is where the "mindful" part of our Catholic faith becomes a true superpower.

The Sacred Pause: Where Mindfulness Meets Faith

When fear freezes us, our first instinct is to either fight the fear ("Go away! I shouldn't feel this!") or flee from it (distract, numb, scroll).

Mindfulness offers a third, revolutionary path: Acknowledge it.

Mindfulness, at its core, is simply paying attention to the present moment without judgment. When fear shows up, mindfulness doesn't panic. It just notices.

It says, "Ah, hello fear. I feel you. My chest is tight. My breathing is shallow. My thoughts are racing."

You don't have to like the feeling. You don't have to agree with the feeling. You just have to notice that it's there.

This simple act of noticing is incredibly powerful. It creates a tiny bit of space between you (your soul, your consciousness) and the fear (the emotion, the chemical reaction).

In that space—that sacred pause—we get to make a choice.

The Pivot: Choosing Our Anchor

Fear has a very loud voice. It wants to be the only thing we hear. It points to the wind and the waves and screams, "We're going to drown!" (Just ask Peter).

Faith, in that sacred pause, is the conscious decision to turn our gaze. It’s the choice to listen to a different voice—a quieter, steadier one.

It’s the voice of God, who doesn't always still the storm around us, but who always promises to be in the boat with us.

This is the pivot:

Fear says: "The threat is huge!"
Faith says: "God is bigger."
Fear says: "You are alone!"
Faith says: "I am with you." (Isaiah 41:10)
Fear says: "The darkness is overwhelming!"
Faith says: "The Lord is my light." (Psalm 27:1)

Notice that faith doesn't deny the storm. The waves are real. The threat might be real. The fear is definitely real. Faith just chooses to make God the anchor, not the fear.

A 3-Step Mindful Catholic Pivot (For When You're Frozen)

This isn't a one-and-done fix. It's a practice. It's like building a muscle. The next time you feel that 3:00 AM panic, or that midday wave of anxiety, try this:

1. Acknowledge (The Mindful Part):

Don't fight it. Just name it. "I am feeling a wave of fear right now." Take a deep breath. Feel your feet on the floor. You are here. You are present. The feeling is just a feeling; it is not you.

2. Breathe (The Embodied Part):

Connect your breath to your prayer. This brings your body (which is holding the fear) into the presence of God (who holds you).

Breathe in: "Jesus, my light..."
Breathe out: "...and my salvation."

Do this three or four times. Let your breath get a little slower, a little deeper.

3. Anchor (The Faith Part):

Make the choice. You can say it out loud or in your heart:

"Lord, this fear is real, and I feel it. But I choose to trust that Your presence is more real. I don't know the outcome, but I know You. You are my refuge. You are my strength. I am placing my trust in You, even with my knees knocking."

Be gentle with yourself. This is the work of a lifetime. Having to make this choice over and over doesn't mean your faith is weak. It means you're human.

And every single time you choose to pivot, every time you turn your gaze back to Him—no matter how scared you feel—that, my friend, is an act of gigantic, courageous faith.

Peace be with you.